I decided to publicly, for the third time share the interpretations of the dream I had before I woke up, because I know it's all about an issue that I am going to have to deal with and face.
source: dreammoods.com
Pregnant
To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. Being pregnant in your dream may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal. Alternatively, if you are trying to get pregnant, then the dream may be a wish fulfillment. If you are not trying to get pregnant, but dream that you are, then it symbolizes fear of new responsibilities.
When it comes to this, I think I have been dreaming about this for a while because of the issues I've had with my mom since monday. When she confronted me back in January about being on the pill and doing the dirty, I was actually relieved. I thought I might finally have one of those mom-daughter relationships that I kind of always wanted. you know.. when the daughter and mom don't really have any secrets. I have always wanted that, but my parents haven't really allowed for that because of how highly unrealistic they always have been. On monday after my gynecologist appointment, I was really surprised how my mom was. She was totally okay to go get the pill and everything, and when I told her I wasn't comfortable using the certain one I got after reading the side effects online, she was okay with me switching. Yesterday we went to the Pharmacy to get it exchanged, and it was like Tuesday was the day for all hell to break loose.
Fainting
To dream that you are fainting, suggests your inability to confront some unconscious issues or feelings. You need to be more aware and acknowledge those feelings.
I refuse to confront my mom about how she was treating me yesterday, because I know she won't care. I know she won't.
Shark
To see a shark in your dream, indicates feelings of anger, hostility, and fierceness. You are undergoing a long and difficult emotional period and may be an emotional threat to yourself or to others. Perhaps, you are struggling with your individuality and independence, especially in some aspect of your relationship. Alternatively, a shark represents a person in your life who is greedy and unscrupulous. This person goes after what he or she wants with no regards to the well-being and sensitivity of others. The shark may also be an aspect of your own personality with these qualities.
This one was kindof like a "WHOA," to me. I know I'm going through something really emotional right now, but I didn't know I was affecting others, haha. Oops. I don't know. It's emotional because it's sad for me to know now that I can't really count on my parents for support. Basically, if I were to get pregant, my parents would either disown me, or ship me off to the Philippines. When it comes to the pill, I thought my mom was going to be understanding. You know, when I talked to the doctor, that wasn't actually the only reason I was needing to go back onto the pill again. I have had a couple issues with my body - one being, I have had intense pain in my stomach after doin "stuff", and it then recedes to my back end area. She said that is probably "endometriosis", and that the pill actually helps treat that. So I was relieved. I have also skipped a few periods which I know isn't right, and I also am getting pretty bad skin again - I swear it's like high school all over again (skin wise haha). Not to mention, every period that happens is like TORTURE. I almost throw up from pain, and I literally can't do anything. It really sucks. And I know what it's like to be on the pill, because I was on it for almost a year. It really, really helped my skin as well as my periods. I loved it. It wasn't until after I got off that I remembered how bad my periods used to be, ha.
As the shark interpretation says, I am definitely struggling with independence. For sure. I am struggling with alot of aspects of wanting my parents to treat me like a decent human being and treat me with respect. Just because I have done something that is completely naturally human, they treat me like I'm the slut child and I haven't done anything right in life.
Feeding
To dream that you are feeding someone, indicates that someone in your life is in need of love and acceptance. That someone could be an aspect of yourself.
Yeah ... haha. In my dream I was on a rocky boat, feeding a shark talking to my mom. I don't remember specifics, but hey that's good enough. I think the person that my dream is telling me that needs love and acceptance, is me. I have never felt so alone as I do now. Even though I know I have friends, a loving boyfriend, and all of his family to support me, it doesn't mean anything really if I know my own family won't even support me. I thought it might be different if I start opening up and being honest and truthful to my mom, but it didn't. It went right back at me, and made me feel pretty shitty. No matter where we go, she finds a way to tie me having sex and society being terrible into what is going on at that very moment. When is this all going to stop?! She embarrasses me, and makes me feel like shit. I don't deserve the way she is treating me at all. All I really wanted was to feel like I would have the support of one of the most important people in my life, and I don't. Instead, she's walking all over me. She talks to whoever she can publicly, causing a scene.
"I don't understand the kids these days."
"Society is much different now."
"I'm ashamed to have to come here with my daughter buying this for her. You know, Tiffany, you are on your own after this. Find your own way to pay for these every month after this month because I don't support this, and I won't condone it."
How the hell does she think that makes me feel?
Boat
To dream that you are in or see a boat, signifies your ability to cope with and express your emotions. Pay particular attention to the condition and state of the waters, whether it is calm or violent, clear or murky, etc. Are you "smooth sailing"? Alternatively, you may be ready to confront your unconscious and unknown aspects of yourself. The dream could be telling you not to rock the boat and to stay out of harm's way.
I'm not ready to confront my mom. I wish I was. But I guess in the meantime, I'll have to deal with her and her embarassing me, and making me feel worthless in public more. It sucks, but hey what can you do.
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