For me, strangely, 11:15 at night on a weeknight was considered pretty early for me. Now ever since I started college, you'd think I'd turn into the typical college night owl - but no, no. Right now as I struggle to keep myself awake to write this God-forsaken paper, I began to reflect and compare my life now to what it used to be like living in small town of Prescott.
Even though I am essentially responsible for myself now almost completely, I feel like now that I am in college, my life is somewhat easier as well.
For instance, I don't have to wake up every morning at 7 am to take out my precious dog, Paris. I literally roll out of bed now a half hour to 20 minutes before class starts, brush my teeth, put on some clothes and jet out to class. My only "real" chores and responsibilities are school now. Of course in my mind it weighs so heavily, because all I want to do is succeed and not screw anything up. I want to stay on top of my grades, and I am proud of myself so far for being able to do so (I hope I didn't jinx myself..). In high school, academics was not a top priority for me. Not to say I was a failing grade student throughout high school; I just didn't care to get straight a's. I was more of an A's, B's, and a couple C's throughout my high school career, which I was okay with. It wasn't until my senior year that I really started to care about my academics, because it was like, "Okay, colleges are going to decline you if you don't have good grades!! GET TO IT!" So, I did. My last year of high school, I got straight a's for most the year, I think. I don't even really remember now. On top of that, I became involved in the band which was one of the best decisions I made in high school. I went back to the local dance studio and began training in dance again - not just school dance team, which is pretty easy dancing and not extremely technical. I was dancing again, and it felt so great to actually feel like I was getting better; not just dancing to put on a show.
Anyway, as I sit here in the midst of my 'busy' college life, I find myself still in my "good grade craze", which is good. I am determined tonight to stay up as late as I need to, to get this paper done. One might wonder what the prompt for this paper is? "Actual Performance realization vs. Concept of Composition in Several Cultures."
Yeah... Beats me. I'm completely in the dark on this one, which is why I'm not writing it right now. My friend and I are currently trying to help each other out by exchanging some notes over Skype. I hope that's not cheating..
To sum this up, I miss Prescott, but I'm also kindof liking this newfound freedom that I've had, that I also haven't abused like most college freshman tend to do. I am actually going to bed earlier than I did when I was in high school, and I am actually really organized! I'm proud of myself!
Well that was enough self-loving for the night I guess, haha. I should probably start writing my paper now.
Tomorrow, when I'll have a moment to myself, I'll try and update my 30 Day Challenge all in one post.
XOX<3
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