Dirt

I wanted to separate these two posts because they are two completely different feelings and I don't want them associated with each other.

On Chanukah, I met a boy who I thought was a teenager. He works at the J, and I thought he was so much younger than me since he worked there - most of the people that work there are in their teens.  Anyway, he was "assigned" to my room to watch and just make sure everything was okay; and we ended up playing general music instruments together like drums, maracas, shakers together while singing Chanukah songs. It was actually kind of fun. Anyway, I remember thinking he's cute but way too young.  And then didn't think of him again much.

Fast-forward like two months later, we matched on TINDER. Hahaha. Something my friend Ali forced me to get after I got dumped... Which I am grateful to her for.

He messaged me first:

"You look really familiar..."
At the same time, I responded with: "We rocked out on some general music instruments at the J on Chanukah"
when he added "Wait were you at the J for a Chanukah event playing music???" Haha. It was funny. We realized at the exact same time where we knew each other.

From there we kept talking, and texting.  He was the first person in awhile that really made me laugh, out loud. We met at Coffee Plantation on Shea, and we talked and talked. He made me laugh out loud like several times and it wasn't forced. I was legitimately surprised how funny he was.  He isn't super super hot - I mean he is definitely handsome. But his humor definitely makes him so much hotter.

He came to my apartment after and we played music for each other - I swear NOTHING happened.  We hugged goodbye, and we decided to hang out again soon.

The next time we hung out,  he wanted to take me on a date. I loved that he knew where he wanted to take me. There's nothing more annoying than a guy who doesn't have a plan haha.  I had a blast. He opened my door. Every. Time. I thought his door may have been broken or something because he opened it for me and made a point to. Then I realized it was just chivalry not being dead.  Such a turn on.

We watched funny animal videos on a small grassy hill at the Scottsdale Quarter while eating fro-yo. I kept wondering when are we going to kiss. I wanted it to happen but I wanted it to be organic.

That's the thing now. We have kissed twice now, two separate hangouts (Have not discussed the third hangout) but I didn't feel those sparks. And I am afraid I am comparing it to Gabi. Because with Gabi, I was so, so madly head over heels in love. I literally had a kiss with him where I was weak in the knees, like I lost feeling. That had never happened ever in my life before.  I just need to STOP comparing.

Anyway. Our third hangout we baked cookies together. Actually, I baked the cookies while he ate everything in my kitchen and watched. It was so fun.  Before I baked the cookies, we went to the grocery store and we were telling each other puns with grocery store items, and I seriously couldn't stop laughing. My face hurt.

THEN: As I am mid laughter with him in my kitchen,  guess who won't let me have a night to myself? Yup. You guessed it. I get a familiar name pop up on my phone that says,
"Hey Tiffany I know I said I wouldn't pressure you, but I am going to be in town in two weeks, and I would like to see you if you're available/want to. If you are available or want to let me know" or something along those lines. I didn't respond for a whole day. But wow talk about a laugh kill.

This guy is funny. He is so opposite of Gabi in the sense of upbringing. He was such a bad boy, and has a bad past. He isn't straight edge at all. He is rough, and has a Maryland accent (which I find super sexy, again).  But he does make me laugh. And he's smart.  What should matter right now is what makes me happy, right? I am NOT thinking about any kind of commitment right now, even if I am a creature of commitment/monogamy - I'm trying not to get too attached.

I'm thinking of asking this guy to a wedding on Thursday with me. When is appropriate to ask someone to go to a wedding with you? Haha. Maybe I'll google that right now...

Anyway. He's an exciting guy.  He puts a smile on my face.