So it is 4:49 AM Saturday morning, and I've been up for almost an hour now. I was abruptly woken up because I had probably one of the worst dreams of my life! In the dream, I had found out my mom died, and it was during a time when her and I weren't getting along. In the dream, I had found out from Eydn's step dad, and then Tyler drove me to the place where she died, and where her car still was. It was in a location downtown, kinda in a more blue collar area. It wasn't even a real street or anything in my city's actual downtown, it just looked similar. Anyway, once we arrived at the house, I saw our car there, and I was walking up to the house, then immediately collapsed and just began bawling. I was crying so hard in my dream, that I couldn't even breathe. This is where it got pretty unrealistic: People in the house that came out were just a few random people I know in my life: a kid in my band class this year, Vince, my stand partner in the local POPS symphony, Sheryl, and then halfway through the conversation they were having with me while I was still on the ground - my dad just interjects a comment and he's also too suddenly there.
The weird thing is, I woke up at around 3:48 I think it was, and saw that I was still on the phone with Tyler: we had fallen asleep on the phone again. So I hung up the phone and just went back to bed. The dream seemed to last almost a whole day, and it was about a 5 minute dream. I woke up at I think it was 3:54. How did a dream like that occur in that short of time?! ..What made my mind think of that dream? It's not like I want that to happen.. at all!!
Tyler was in a psychology class last semester, and he learned alot about the sleeping patterns of us humans. I don't remember it fully, but there was something I remember him saying about having 4 levels of sleep, and you really only dream on the first or second level (could be just first actually). Your body in the course of the night goes through these levels several times, in order, and then reverse order. 1, 2, 3, 4, 3, 2, 1. I think. It makes sense; I mean, I did conspire that dream into my mind within 4 minutes.
It was such a terrible dream; I woke up, and tears were soaking my eyes. I actually left my bed and went to my parent's room, and checked if she was still alive. By that point, I obviously knew she was still alive, but it was just to make me feel better I suppose. When I got there, she was already awake just watching the TV, and I just stood there and she said, "What are you doing here?" and then I replied, "I was just checking if you were still alive."
"What?"
"I had a dream you died," I said, and I started to cry a little again while hugging her. She just patted me on the back and said it was just a dream, and that I got a dream like that because I don't pray before I go to bed anymore, haha.
When I woke up, I tried calling both Tyler and Eydn; Tyler was incoherently speaking, and Eydn didn't reply- but hey, that's alot to ask for at 4 in the morning..I can't just expect they'll arise right away because I had a terrible dream ha.
This dream really struck me (obviously) so I decided to look up the interpretation of it on dreammoods.com. Here is what came up:
In particular, to dream about the death of your parents, indicates that you are undergoing a significant change in your waking life. Your relationship with your parents has evolved into a new realm.
This led me to conspire, "Did I have this nightmare because of my ventilation on my blog yesterday?"
I'm actually not sure, but I think letting those feelings out probably had a lot to do with it. Now, what does it mean that my relationship with my parents has evolved into a new realm. Is that a good thing? I sure hope so. I don't mean to burst the interpretation bubble, but I honestly haven't felt a different connection or in a different realm with them really, like at all. It's just - normal. I wish I knew more on this... I really do. Any feedback? If not, I will just contemplate these feelings while tanning, or something.
Wow, what a start to the day.. I'm probably going to be really drowsy by 7 pm haha.
Sweet dreams everyone, literally. Or I hope everyone currently is at the moment (because no one is going to be awake right now!)
xoxx
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