Succulents

Actual Date of this started: March 14, 2017 (PI DAY!)

Today after a long day of work, I was sending my usual back and forth voice messages to Matt, and then mid-sentence, I see a package at my door.  He sent me flowers. Just because. The note said

You know what's funny? We fell asleep on the couch last Monday. 
Missing you, Matthew


My heart melted and I of course started to cry. In that moment,  I wanted to call him immediately to thank him but Eydn actually called. So I answered her call, crying lol.  She of course handled it fine and ended up making me laugh, and probably happy tearing with me. It was this beautiful, big bouquet sent to my door with beautiful flowers and two succulents.


Continuing this a few days later... (3/17/2017)

Is it supposed to be this easy? Technically, this is all happening long distance - and this is easier than my last relationship that was next DOOR to me.  Insane.
I am not sure yet if I should be calling this a "relationship" quite yet, I am just riding it out to see where it goes.

CONTINUING EVEN A FEW DAYS after THAT.. (3/24/2017)

Today is Matt's birthday. I really miss him. I have started going back and forth very recently with my feelings because.. well. maybe not that. More like second guessing things like, "Do I really like him?  Or am I just desperate?"  But... no. I do like him. A lot. It's just really scary talking to someone all the time that mutually likes me back just as much. Like really weird.  It's easy. SO easy.  He is so good to me. I never am wondering "What the heck is he doing"... nothing.  It's just so effortless and I'm not used to it.  I am so excited to see him next month (I booked a ticket two nights ago!).  Even if I don't REALLY get to spend time with him until a little later after I've been there.

Also, I got him the silliest birthday gifts. I am pretty sure he is going to think they are all hilarious, but I still freak myself out hoping OMG I hope he likes it all! Here's what I did:

I took my March Birchbox box, emptied it out because it really is such a cute box. I crossed out "Birch" and wrote "Matt's Birthday" above it. So, "Matt's Birthday Box".

I got him this cute pair (I feel weird saying "cute" for a guy's item but I'll continue) pair of socks; actually two pairs. But one was from San Diego with game consoles all over them.  The other pair, which, I added the night before I mailed it off, was a pair of AZ Aztec looking socks. I thought he'd like them.

Next, I added in lube because we were in serious turmoil when he was here. Both of us were HIGHLY unprepared which was actually really nice. Because seriously, if he showed up and just whipped out a condom from his pocket I would have absolutely made him sleep on the couch.
Well. Maybe.  But he would've had to really win me over haha.

After that I have his "You got this!" sign I made for him last month for his PS audition that he left here by accident.  I also included a travel tag that has the Grand Canyon on it.  I should mention that every gift has a post it on it, explaining why I put it in there. Kinda cute. I REALLY should have taken a picture of everything.  I also wrote his birthday card on an Arizona post card of Javelinas, because he didn't take back much AZ memorabilia.  So I definitely made sure to include some AZ gear.

Finally, this is where it actually took thought. I knew I really wanted to do something with the word we have schaughbreh. I know it's dumb. But it really does tie in a lot of jokes and stuff we have together.  So I wanted to make a pin that he could put in his cello case, but instead I got a canvas magnet, colored it with different colors and then dropped some alcohol on it. Rubbed it in with my fingers and created this tie-dye effect which I bought two; KNOWING I would mess it up. Which I did.  Second try wasn't as bad, and I was happy with the results. In the neatest handwriting in Tiffany history, I wrote out schaughbreh in black.  So now, he has a magnet that says one of our words on it.  Is that cute or just lame?

I am anxiously waiting for him to call me and say it delivered, I am so nervous that he won't like any of it!!  More to come soon, it should be delivering any day...

Also, can I get a HALLELUJAH for finally FINALLY moving onto a NON June baby?!?