Monday, October 24, 2011

Anxiety Month 1

It's been a little over a month now that I have been taking the antidepressant. My doctor upped my dosage double from the month before, and ugh. Bad idea.

Improvements:

- Performance Anxiety before doubling
- OCD

UH OH's:

- Too relaxed when I perform now (so, the dose needs to go back down to 25)
- headaches everyday


I am really liking where the medication is helping me get though. I can play violin for my teacher like I've been wanting to for literally like a year, and I am not thinking about stupid obsessive, compulsive things that I shouldn't even think about. yeah, it still happens from time to time, but it's not a constant every day thing, and it will only get better :)


Another downside though, with the doubling, I've been having random mood swings, like how a girl acts before her period, haha. The other day, I had a crying fit mixed with just overwhelming stress. It was a major detox, and then I just crashed for 3 and a half hours. I noticed I am also more tired these days as well...


We'll see how I improve by next month!

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