Thursdays are probably my favorite days. I think it is because I have violin lessons, and I get out super, super early!
I really have to get buzzin on my practice, however I am feeling alot more relieved. This might not mean alot to you non-music people, but I just found out today that the various scales I'd have to learn all have the same fingering (not a gross word. "Fingering" is what you call certain passages with fingers in violin and most instruments..) ! It was an exciting revelation for me.
I spilled out months of ventilation all in one post recently, and I just finished re-reading it. Talk about bottled up! Such a hard time. All I have to do is hope that everything is going to turn out okay. Which i will do. We've obviously talked and all since then; I just still have that feeling, like light tugging at my brain that won't let me forget anything, especially things I want to forget.
All I can really do at this point is hope.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Dream Interpretation, no. 2
I had quite the strange dream, but it also brought lots of insight through dreammoods.com...
The following I decided to look up in the dictionary:
Tiger
To see a tiger in your dream, represents power and your ability to exert it in various situations. The dream may also indicate that you need to take more of a leadership role. Alternatively, the tiger represents female sexuality, aggression, and seduction.
To dream that you are attacked by a tiger, symbolizes repressed feelings or emotions that you are frightened of.
Frame
To frame a picture in your dream, represents a wish to have a current situation or relationship remain the same as it is now. You dread change. Consider what is depicted on the picture for additional significance.
To see a frame in your dream, represents limitations and boundaries. You or someone else may be putting restrictions on you. Alternatively, it symbolizes vanity. The dream may be a pun on being "framed" for something you did not do.
Boulder
To see a boulder in your dream, symbolizes a major obstacle and problem in some component of your life.
Rock Climbing
To dream that you are rock climbing, symbolizes your struggle, determination and ambition. You are not any letting obstacles get in the way of your goal.
Library
To dream that you are in a library, signifies your search for knowledge and your hunger for ideas. If the library is disorganized, then it suggests that too much information is coming at you at the same time. You are having difficulty sorting it all out.
Well! That might've seemed extremely random to you... Tiger, frame, rock climbing, boulder, library.. But it kindof all makes sense to me, especially since it reflects on a certain situation. You all probably know who and what anyway, haha. Something that took a huge toll over me this entire weekend, which it shouldn't have in the first place because everything was blown extremely out of proportion.
I don't know what to do. With all this information, my dream is tellng me this about each---
Tiger: power and ability to exert in certain situations - I was extremely fired up in an argument yesterday..yelling, all that. I had so much anger and aggression. It was the only way to protect myself it seemed, or to get my point across.
attacked by a tiger... repressed feelings - Yeah, definitely had a lot of those. I felt like everything I was saying yesterday was getting shut down. I kept being told I don't listen, when he wasn't doing much listening either. It was so hard.
Frame: picture frame - It was so weird. In my dream, my dad told me the tiger wasn't real, so he literally threw the tiger and then it became small, fake, and in a frame. From the interpretation, I believe this is also, as all these, dealing with my relationship. The dream interpretations says I dread change, (which is true), and I wish for everything to remain the same. That isn't true.. partially. I wish things were how they were when him and I first started dating. He used to want to hang out with me... not put me for last and hang out with everyone first if we were fighting. He used to care to fix things. That was one of the biggest things I liked so much about him was because when I was stubborn and mad, he was there, still, trying to fix it, talk to me. He was understanding, caring - even if we were mad at each other. It's all changed now. It's not like that anymore. I wish we could go back to how it was in the beginning. What made it change? Did we change each other?
Boulder: major obstacle, problem in waking life - yeah, this is true. It was a major, MAJOR problem yesterday. He isn't even sure if we should fix it. Why should I bother listening to anything he is yelling at me if he told me straight up he has never been able to say how he has felt, ever, during this whole relationship. Our whole relationship is a lie then. I always thought that was one of the strengths of our relationship. That we could talk to each other, tell each other how we were feeling. I feel like everything that was ever said to me has been a lie this whole time now. I don't know what to do. I feel so hurt.
Rock Climbing: struggle, determination, not letting obstacles get in the way of goal - Maybe this is partially right. For a while I wasn't going to let anything make it fall apart, but I feel in such defeat that it really isn't worth even trying to fix anymore. He's obviously given up, and I am so confused what to do. All I ever wanted for was him to care, unconditionally. Not just when we're happy, but even when we're upset. It used to be that way, but I think I just realized it hasn't been that way for a long time.
Library: Disorganized library - Too much information was being thrown at me yesterday. All that he was saying just made me want to shut him up. I didn't need to listen anymore. It really got to me this time. With the stuff he said, I realized I didn't need to listen to anything else he needed to say, because I basically got the important information I needed. I don't get the feeling there is 100% commitment. It's like everytime we argue, it turns into this sob fest where he can't say anything, and feels like he wants to die. I can do without the drama, and let's get the real issue.
I have so much to think about. And even worse, he has to take me down to Tempe today. Great. More opportunity to hurt me. I have to find my iPod, otherwise I don't know how I'll make it down to Tempe without hurting someone, haha.
I wish someone could just tell me what to do. Because if someone says, (and has) "I think you guys need a break", I can't do it. I'm not strong enough. I like to think that when I tell him that I'm done with it, that I really am. But I'm not. I bet today he'll end up saying that things will change, or it will get better. Or that he loves me. Or even sorry. Sorry isn't good enough, and hasn't been for a while. I guess what I've always wanted most was to feel cared for, and I do when we're good. But when we're not, I feel like scum. What terrible things did I do to deserve how I'm treated when we're mad at each other? Even when we are mad at each other, I have never put him off. Ever. I always prioritize, and especially when we're arguing I will prioritize even more to make it better. I don't get that same simple courtesy back, and I'm tired of it. I was put off 2 days in a row, because he wanted to eat food, and hang out with his friends. What am I supposed to do in the meantime? It hurt me so much, that I was so willing to just fix it all, and he would rather hang out with his friends. Last night, I was planning to hang out with friends because I was tired of just moping around. I ended up having to call Tyler because he had a few things of mine that I needed for both today and yesterday (that including my dorm room keys) and that's when our yelling started. And it just got worse. and he didn't care. Not at all. I decided I couldn't go to my friend's house anymore because I looked horrible. I wasted all that time getting ready, and putting makeup on (which i don't do anymore rarely) to go have a good time, and I ended up sitting in my car in the Abia Judd Elementary school parking lot, crying. Sobbing. I cried and cried. I hoped so badly, that even after we got off the phone, that he'd care enough to come see me or something. Or text me. Anything. I got nothing. I sat there, called my best friend and she made me feel alot better temporarily. As always, I gave in and I called him when I got home and then texted. You know what I got? He turned off his phone. It hurt me even more. I don't know why I'm so weak... Why do I always have to say something first? God... all I want is to just feel cared for! Even when it's bad. Even when he feels like he wants to break something, talk to me. Don't ignore me and act like I don't exist. Don't treat me like I've never done anything for you. I could list off what i feel I've done for him, but what is the point of all that. Nothing at all. It wouldn't benefit anyone, except me for maybe 4 minutes to feel better, but then I'd just feel sad again.
On top of that, I'm not like him. He sleeps like a baby, no matter what. Me.. If there are problems, I can't go to bed well, at all. I probably woke up every hour or so the whole night, and I woke up with the worst headache of my life and Japanese girl eyes (I can say 'Japanese girl eyes' because I'm part asian. otherwise you all could deem this racist). I got a text from him at 3 in the morning saying he'd give me a ride. My hope was so far fetched. He was out with is friends till 3 in the morning. He wasn't ever going to come see me, or even give me the courtesy of a phone call. Not at all.
I know what I should do, but I can't. I'm not strong enough.
The following I decided to look up in the dictionary:
Tiger
To see a tiger in your dream, represents power and your ability to exert it in various situations. The dream may also indicate that you need to take more of a leadership role. Alternatively, the tiger represents female sexuality, aggression, and seduction.
To dream that you are attacked by a tiger, symbolizes repressed feelings or emotions that you are frightened of.
Frame
To frame a picture in your dream, represents a wish to have a current situation or relationship remain the same as it is now. You dread change. Consider what is depicted on the picture for additional significance.
To see a frame in your dream, represents limitations and boundaries. You or someone else may be putting restrictions on you. Alternatively, it symbolizes vanity. The dream may be a pun on being "framed" for something you did not do.
Boulder
To see a boulder in your dream, symbolizes a major obstacle and problem in some component of your life.
Rock Climbing
To dream that you are rock climbing, symbolizes your struggle, determination and ambition. You are not any letting obstacles get in the way of your goal.
Library
To dream that you are in a library, signifies your search for knowledge and your hunger for ideas. If the library is disorganized, then it suggests that too much information is coming at you at the same time. You are having difficulty sorting it all out.
Well! That might've seemed extremely random to you... Tiger, frame, rock climbing, boulder, library.. But it kindof all makes sense to me, especially since it reflects on a certain situation. You all probably know who and what anyway, haha. Something that took a huge toll over me this entire weekend, which it shouldn't have in the first place because everything was blown extremely out of proportion.
I don't know what to do. With all this information, my dream is tellng me this about each---
Tiger: power and ability to exert in certain situations - I was extremely fired up in an argument yesterday..yelling, all that. I had so much anger and aggression. It was the only way to protect myself it seemed, or to get my point across.
attacked by a tiger... repressed feelings - Yeah, definitely had a lot of those. I felt like everything I was saying yesterday was getting shut down. I kept being told I don't listen, when he wasn't doing much listening either. It was so hard.
Frame: picture frame - It was so weird. In my dream, my dad told me the tiger wasn't real, so he literally threw the tiger and then it became small, fake, and in a frame. From the interpretation, I believe this is also, as all these, dealing with my relationship. The dream interpretations says I dread change, (which is true), and I wish for everything to remain the same. That isn't true.. partially. I wish things were how they were when him and I first started dating. He used to want to hang out with me... not put me for last and hang out with everyone first if we were fighting. He used to care to fix things. That was one of the biggest things I liked so much about him was because when I was stubborn and mad, he was there, still, trying to fix it, talk to me. He was understanding, caring - even if we were mad at each other. It's all changed now. It's not like that anymore. I wish we could go back to how it was in the beginning. What made it change? Did we change each other?
Boulder: major obstacle, problem in waking life - yeah, this is true. It was a major, MAJOR problem yesterday. He isn't even sure if we should fix it. Why should I bother listening to anything he is yelling at me if he told me straight up he has never been able to say how he has felt, ever, during this whole relationship. Our whole relationship is a lie then. I always thought that was one of the strengths of our relationship. That we could talk to each other, tell each other how we were feeling. I feel like everything that was ever said to me has been a lie this whole time now. I don't know what to do. I feel so hurt.
Rock Climbing: struggle, determination, not letting obstacles get in the way of goal - Maybe this is partially right. For a while I wasn't going to let anything make it fall apart, but I feel in such defeat that it really isn't worth even trying to fix anymore. He's obviously given up, and I am so confused what to do. All I ever wanted for was him to care, unconditionally. Not just when we're happy, but even when we're upset. It used to be that way, but I think I just realized it hasn't been that way for a long time.
Library: Disorganized library - Too much information was being thrown at me yesterday. All that he was saying just made me want to shut him up. I didn't need to listen anymore. It really got to me this time. With the stuff he said, I realized I didn't need to listen to anything else he needed to say, because I basically got the important information I needed. I don't get the feeling there is 100% commitment. It's like everytime we argue, it turns into this sob fest where he can't say anything, and feels like he wants to die. I can do without the drama, and let's get the real issue.
I have so much to think about. And even worse, he has to take me down to Tempe today. Great. More opportunity to hurt me. I have to find my iPod, otherwise I don't know how I'll make it down to Tempe without hurting someone, haha.
I wish someone could just tell me what to do. Because if someone says, (and has) "I think you guys need a break", I can't do it. I'm not strong enough. I like to think that when I tell him that I'm done with it, that I really am. But I'm not. I bet today he'll end up saying that things will change, or it will get better. Or that he loves me. Or even sorry. Sorry isn't good enough, and hasn't been for a while. I guess what I've always wanted most was to feel cared for, and I do when we're good. But when we're not, I feel like scum. What terrible things did I do to deserve how I'm treated when we're mad at each other? Even when we are mad at each other, I have never put him off. Ever. I always prioritize, and especially when we're arguing I will prioritize even more to make it better. I don't get that same simple courtesy back, and I'm tired of it. I was put off 2 days in a row, because he wanted to eat food, and hang out with his friends. What am I supposed to do in the meantime? It hurt me so much, that I was so willing to just fix it all, and he would rather hang out with his friends. Last night, I was planning to hang out with friends because I was tired of just moping around. I ended up having to call Tyler because he had a few things of mine that I needed for both today and yesterday (that including my dorm room keys) and that's when our yelling started. And it just got worse. and he didn't care. Not at all. I decided I couldn't go to my friend's house anymore because I looked horrible. I wasted all that time getting ready, and putting makeup on (which i don't do anymore rarely) to go have a good time, and I ended up sitting in my car in the Abia Judd Elementary school parking lot, crying. Sobbing. I cried and cried. I hoped so badly, that even after we got off the phone, that he'd care enough to come see me or something. Or text me. Anything. I got nothing. I sat there, called my best friend and she made me feel alot better temporarily. As always, I gave in and I called him when I got home and then texted. You know what I got? He turned off his phone. It hurt me even more. I don't know why I'm so weak... Why do I always have to say something first? God... all I want is to just feel cared for! Even when it's bad. Even when he feels like he wants to break something, talk to me. Don't ignore me and act like I don't exist. Don't treat me like I've never done anything for you. I could list off what i feel I've done for him, but what is the point of all that. Nothing at all. It wouldn't benefit anyone, except me for maybe 4 minutes to feel better, but then I'd just feel sad again.
On top of that, I'm not like him. He sleeps like a baby, no matter what. Me.. If there are problems, I can't go to bed well, at all. I probably woke up every hour or so the whole night, and I woke up with the worst headache of my life and Japanese girl eyes (I can say 'Japanese girl eyes' because I'm part asian. otherwise you all could deem this racist). I got a text from him at 3 in the morning saying he'd give me a ride. My hope was so far fetched. He was out with is friends till 3 in the morning. He wasn't ever going to come see me, or even give me the courtesy of a phone call. Not at all.
I know what I should do, but I can't. I'm not strong enough.
Friday, March 18, 2011
IT'S LOST!!
HELP! MY PLANNER IS LOST!!!!
I feel so alone without it and lost in mind / thought! ..
Just thought I'd share. I really, really, REALLY hope I can find it. Where the hell is it?!
I feel so alone without it and lost in mind / thought! ..
Just thought I'd share. I really, really, REALLY hope I can find it. Where the hell is it?!
Little Red Patty's Day
I had no IDEA what a big deal St. Patrick's Day is. I feel like it's such a pretentious holiday now; like it's just some holiday for everyone to dress in green and drink alot. One side of my family is Irish, and the furthest we go is cooking corn beef and potatoes. Literally every year, that's as celebratory as it gets. Last night after I went to a hip hop master class (which killed by the way and was AWESOME!!) taught by Beth Pargas, I was downtown with my mom and sister. She had to take some photos for her job of the so called "nightlife" of Prescott, and everyone was so crazily dressed! It was pretty cool to see I'll admit. Some girls were so hoochie though, that they didn't care it was 50 degrees outside; they preferred to wear slim to nothing. Oh well. What can you do?! I had dinner that night after the class with my mom and sister at a little place downtown, St. Michael's. Their fish was actually really good - I was surprised! It's hard to find fish around here that isn't either frozen fish, or just not good at all, ha.
The master class was so fun. I miss dancing so much. And hip hop is really fun for me at least. Usually people are better at jazz and all that, but hip hop is definitely my favorite style. Probably after being on the pom team haha. It was a good night, and I woke up this morning and couldn't move my neck!! Too much head swirling...
After hanging around downtown, I caught up with one of my dearest friends (I don't know what word that would be the same meaning to "dearest"..even if it sounds like an old lady ha) , Maddie and saw "Little Red Riding Hood". She's definitely one of those friends that when we have time gaps of not speaking to each other, it's like nothing changed. Love it! We had such a great talk. I only gossip to friends I feel completely comfortable around, and she is one of those friends so we had an extremely good talk.
Speaking of Little Red Riding Hood.. wow. SO Twilight! No plot development no character development. And cheesy lines, long pauses just like in the twilight movies. Not really my thing. It had potential to be a really good film, but ruined by the actual directors, at least I think.
I've missed my friends from high school. Or, at least the ones who have been genuine. I've lost touch with lots of them, and when I do get in touch with some, it's like they forgot I existed. "Oh, we forgot about her. be sure to ask her to join." Just situations like that have been recurring more and more lately. I have to try and keep in touch with them , which isn't that bad. But it should also be a two way effort.
I think I'll stop complaining! I am going job hunting today again.. and this time in Prescott. If I get a job in Prescott for the summer, I am staying in Prescott over summer and that is that. Certain people can deal with it. Because I don't feel like I am needed in Phoenix over break. And it's just more money anyway.
I should be seeing more friends tonight since there is a dance party going on... I'm really excited! :) I should really get practicing... Gosh I'm such a terrible music student.
Xox. Enjoy your breaks if you are on one....
The master class was so fun. I miss dancing so much. And hip hop is really fun for me at least. Usually people are better at jazz and all that, but hip hop is definitely my favorite style. Probably after being on the pom team haha. It was a good night, and I woke up this morning and couldn't move my neck!! Too much head swirling...
After hanging around downtown, I caught up with one of my dearest friends (I don't know what word that would be the same meaning to "dearest"..even if it sounds like an old lady ha) , Maddie and saw "Little Red Riding Hood". She's definitely one of those friends that when we have time gaps of not speaking to each other, it's like nothing changed. Love it! We had such a great talk. I only gossip to friends I feel completely comfortable around, and she is one of those friends so we had an extremely good talk.
Speaking of Little Red Riding Hood.. wow. SO Twilight! No plot development no character development. And cheesy lines, long pauses just like in the twilight movies. Not really my thing. It had potential to be a really good film, but ruined by the actual directors, at least I think.
I've missed my friends from high school. Or, at least the ones who have been genuine. I've lost touch with lots of them, and when I do get in touch with some, it's like they forgot I existed. "Oh, we forgot about her. be sure to ask her to join." Just situations like that have been recurring more and more lately. I have to try and keep in touch with them , which isn't that bad. But it should also be a two way effort.
I think I'll stop complaining! I am going job hunting today again.. and this time in Prescott. If I get a job in Prescott for the summer, I am staying in Prescott over summer and that is that. Certain people can deal with it. Because I don't feel like I am needed in Phoenix over break. And it's just more money anyway.
I should be seeing more friends tonight since there is a dance party going on... I'm really excited! :) I should really get practicing... Gosh I'm such a terrible music student.
Xox. Enjoy your breaks if you are on one....
Thursday, March 17, 2011
"Ethnic Sags"
This past week has been my spring break, and it really has been one of my most memorable. I didn't go on some exotic trip with my family this time; (however at first I was dying to!) I stayed in both Prescott and Tempe. When spring break first began, I decided to take my friends Phi and Tehvon to Prescott with Tyler and I. They loved it, and we had such a great time! My mom cooked for us everyday, which we all thoroughly enjoyed - I've said this before.. my mom is one of the best cooks I have had the luck to know in my life. Speaking of luck... St. Patrick's Day is tomorrow! I have absolutely nothing planned, other than a hip hop master class. I'm really excited for it. Maybe a little too excited.
back to my first weekend of break. Tehvon, Phi, Tyler and I really didn't do that much. We showed them around Prescott; around downtown, lakes, and each other's houses. We weren't really feeling that outdoorsy. We stayed indoors and really just hung out.
When we came back to Tempe, we ate at Jimmy John's, and then Phi proceeded to have an immense laugh attack, which made all of us cry from laughing so hard. Maybe you had to be there.. but Phi seriously has one of the funniest laughs I have ever heard.
The next day, we all hiked the "A" Mountain on the ASU campus, and Phi & Tyler smoked their pipes. Grosss... haha. I am just not really a fan. Plus, they both looked like old men.
Yesterday I did some major job hunting, all up and down Mill Ave (Mill Avenue is a straight street that is where all the happenings, restaurants, and little bars and shops are. It's like the equivalence of University Dr. I think it's called @ UA..etc..) and I came back with a myriad of applications to fill out. I hope I can get a job. Either in Prescott or Tempe. I just would love some cash flow right now...
Well that's just about it that I've been doing with my life. I've been trying to relax and just enjoy this break while I can, because when I get back I'm going to be extremely busy - I have so much to do especially with violin...which is the root of most of my stress. Yikes.
on top of the "A" Mountain!
xox
back to my first weekend of break. Tehvon, Phi, Tyler and I really didn't do that much. We showed them around Prescott; around downtown, lakes, and each other's houses. We weren't really feeling that outdoorsy. We stayed indoors and really just hung out.
When we came back to Tempe, we ate at Jimmy John's, and then Phi proceeded to have an immense laugh attack, which made all of us cry from laughing so hard. Maybe you had to be there.. but Phi seriously has one of the funniest laughs I have ever heard.
The next day, we all hiked the "A" Mountain on the ASU campus, and Phi & Tyler smoked their pipes. Grosss... haha. I am just not really a fan. Plus, they both looked like old men.
Yesterday I did some major job hunting, all up and down Mill Ave (Mill Avenue is a straight street that is where all the happenings, restaurants, and little bars and shops are. It's like the equivalence of University Dr. I think it's called @ UA..etc..) and I came back with a myriad of applications to fill out. I hope I can get a job. Either in Prescott or Tempe. I just would love some cash flow right now...
Well that's just about it that I've been doing with my life. I've been trying to relax and just enjoy this break while I can, because when I get back I'm going to be extremely busy - I have so much to do especially with violin...which is the root of most of my stress. Yikes.
on top of the "A" Mountain!
xox
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Guilty Pleasure
I haven't been up to much lately; and I've refrained from writing many times unless I feel I have something to write about that might be of some interest to people. I have a couple guilty pleasure confessions to start off...
1) MallWorld: I LOVE mallworld. I first got introduced to mallworld by my boyfriend's Mom (haha, yes it is true!) and I've been hooked ever since. It's this game where you can have your own little virtual mall, pick out clothing collections, decorate, everything. It is really cool. Ever since just a few days ago, Tyler always made fun of me for playing the game - even complained sometimes that I wasn't listening because I was playing mallworld. But just yesterday, he said, "I wish there was a MallWorld for guys." YES! He said that! It made me so happy. He wishes there were games for guys that were as intricate as mallworld...as fun - for guys. I agree.
2) Netflix: Because of Mallworld, I signed up for a free trial to Netflix for a month. I do NOT want to give it up!! They have so many movies and documentaries on there that is so worth the subscription. I did a free month trial to Netflix to get more mall credit for mallworld. I know, addictive...haha. So that led to another guilty pleasure - Law & Order: SVU. I have always liked the show, however never saw every episode. I started from Season 1 and am working my way through to watch every episode.
3) Being Sick: I know, weird choice, huh? But it's totally true. I cannot stand when I can't breathe, I'm too stuffy, can't feel my nose, too tired to walk, my nose is dry. Even though I can't stand all these conditions that go with being sick, I know that every time I am sick, Tyler picks me up, and takes care of me. He makes me soup, drinks, will actually carry me to the bathroom if I need to be (It's happened once, unfortunately when I had the worst stomach pains of my life - NO idea why!) but the point is, I know that when I get sick, it's time that I get time with him, and he takes care of me, and I never feel so loved and taken care of. Not like he doesn't make me feel loved when I'm NOT sick.. just - well you know! He also baby's me... quite a lot. It's nice to feel dependent on someone completely every now and then.. ;) Speaking of which, he should be coming here to take care of me again today - I've been sick for the past couple days, and I can't seem to get rid of this cold! Thank goodness for MallWorld, Netflix/Law&Order SVU, and Tyler! :-)
happy happy tuesday! time to rest and be loved :-)
xox
1) MallWorld: I LOVE mallworld. I first got introduced to mallworld by my boyfriend's Mom (haha, yes it is true!) and I've been hooked ever since. It's this game where you can have your own little virtual mall, pick out clothing collections, decorate, everything. It is really cool. Ever since just a few days ago, Tyler always made fun of me for playing the game - even complained sometimes that I wasn't listening because I was playing mallworld. But just yesterday, he said, "I wish there was a MallWorld for guys." YES! He said that! It made me so happy. He wishes there were games for guys that were as intricate as mallworld...as fun - for guys. I agree.
2) Netflix: Because of Mallworld, I signed up for a free trial to Netflix for a month. I do NOT want to give it up!! They have so many movies and documentaries on there that is so worth the subscription. I did a free month trial to Netflix to get more mall credit for mallworld. I know, addictive...haha. So that led to another guilty pleasure - Law & Order: SVU. I have always liked the show, however never saw every episode. I started from Season 1 and am working my way through to watch every episode.
3) Being Sick: I know, weird choice, huh? But it's totally true. I cannot stand when I can't breathe, I'm too stuffy, can't feel my nose, too tired to walk, my nose is dry. Even though I can't stand all these conditions that go with being sick, I know that every time I am sick, Tyler picks me up, and takes care of me. He makes me soup, drinks, will actually carry me to the bathroom if I need to be (It's happened once, unfortunately when I had the worst stomach pains of my life - NO idea why!) but the point is, I know that when I get sick, it's time that I get time with him, and he takes care of me, and I never feel so loved and taken care of. Not like he doesn't make me feel loved when I'm NOT sick.. just - well you know! He also baby's me... quite a lot. It's nice to feel dependent on someone completely every now and then.. ;) Speaking of which, he should be coming here to take care of me again today - I've been sick for the past couple days, and I can't seem to get rid of this cold! Thank goodness for MallWorld, Netflix/Law&Order SVU, and Tyler! :-)
happy happy tuesday! time to rest and be loved :-)
xox
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